by Robert Wilkinson
Our minds suffering over our own suffering is one of the biggest problems we humans have. Today we take a brief look at how we can transmute difficult feelings that arise, whether from the past or present.
This article is the result of a client wondering about potentially difficult feelings from childhood and early adulthood coming back as a result of an astrological "life scan." This is something that happens after our Progressed Moon conjuncts our natal Sun. The length of the scan is determined by our age.
I won't explain in detail the nuances of what the life scans are about, since that's a huge article and/or a class for students of the craft. That said, generally speaking every so many years we re-feel the process of our life as we've grown from birth to where we're at right now.
Of course, there can be many things that trigger old memories and unresolved internal issues besides a "life scan." While there can be difficult feelings resulting from these unresolved issues originating in earlier years, these are also opportunities to heal our wounds by nurturing ourselves appropriately.
Some are afraid of going back into old feelings and experiences, since many of them are still associated with difficulties from long ago. Still, why should we be afraid of anything? Certainly we should not be afraid to re-feel our life story in ways that we leave unhelpful feelings behind and learn how to take care of ourselves appropriately.
These times of dealing with heaviness and difficult feelings are related to the dance of our Progressed Moon and transiting Saturn, and usually involve our natal Moon and Saturn. While many things can trigger our memory of old experiences, in every case we can come out of heaviness by remembering that as spiritual adults it is our Divine heritage to take command of the vehicle and how we experience our miraculous uniqueness in space-time.
When we are remembering difficult feelings arising from childhood experiences, it is important to remember that we are not experiencing life as we did when we were a child, since by evolutionary necessity we have learned to position our view in non-childlike ways. Our natural innocence gets clothed in personality substance which helps us to adapt to our ever-changing circumstances. Some of these must change over time, since the needs of individuation combined with evolution itself forces us to shift trajectory in the areas that need it.
Often sadness and/or grief is mistaken for "depression." Sadness and grief are a natural part of the human condition. However, a true "depression" means something is being forced down that needs to come up. While life is indeed heavy at times - usually associated with Saturn transits! - these mark points where we must throw off our chains and take responsibility for perfecting our function to express our Higher Self the best we're able.
It's a time when if we feel weak, we must strive to take care of ourselves the best we're able. We do this through being patient, wise, mature, and all the other good Saturn qualities to antidote any patterns leading to weakness, "depression," heaviness, defeatism, and other negative states of mind.
To remind you of something you may already know, these states are fundamentally unreal due to their impermanence. Life is about navigating the ups and downs as we go round and round in our patterns of experience. Change pattern, and the experience changes. Always.
Some of this helps us stay focused on what is real rather than unreal, permanent rather than impermanent. The mind and feelings are inherently restless, and that's why they need to be focused on the higher rather than the lower.
We always have that ability in the here and now, but it must be practiced regularly to create more helpful response patterns. That's also why it's not helpful to go into fear, judgment, comparisons, since each has their own lessons to learn in their own way. Compassion helps both us and others as we learn to direct it toward our own suffering or the suffering we perceive in our external world.
Life can be painful for all kinds of reasons, but we do not have to suffer one instant longer than necessary. Even when we feel hopelessness, defeatism, discouragement, fatigue, and all the other attributes of the mind suffering over its own suffering, we can still turn our minds to better things instantly, changing pattern.
As we change pattern, we change experience. As we change experience, everything can become grist for the mill of Soul. That way eventually we do not suffer as we once did, and can maintain a calm equipoise even in the midst of the worst inner or outer storms. Just one more skill to learn and practice on our Higher Path to becoming Masters of the Wisdom.
© Copyright 2010 Robert Wilkinson