by Robert Wilkinson
When much younger, I found an obscure Astrological text stating the last decan of Libra to be the "Span of Expiation." Also, some of the ancients thought the last half of Libra and first half of Scorpio to be a place where major events occurred, often not pleasant.
So of course, when I first encountered the term "Expiation," I looked it up since I had no idea what it meant. According to a dictionary, it comes from 1375–1425 late Middle English, and originally meant "atonement," "satisfaction," "to make amends," or "the means by which atonement or reparation is made."
So late Libra is a time to make amends, or reparations, which is in line with Rudhyar's keyword for the last half of Libra, "Reconstruction." Late Libra is where we pay necessary dues to make things right, or through some means we correct, and are thereby released from, something we didn't get right at an earlier time so we can get "squared with reality." Of course, it can also mean that another must do this for us.
It makes sense, in that it's the end of the weighing, balancing, and judging period symbolized by Libra as we enter a time in Scorpio of releasing all we no longer need, learning how to "hold the empty space" until we choose to allow it to be filled according to our sense of acceptance. What, how, and when is up to us.
This year, because Venus is retrograde in early Scorpio headed back to where it will go stationary direct in late Libra, we're experiencing this through a process of reviewing Venusian things in our subconsciousness. Since Venus also symbolizes our vanities, or self reflective likes and dislikes, this is a good time to see how our vanities attracted or repelled what we thought we liked or valued that have brought us to where we are now.
Perhaps this is the perfect time to review our ideals and see what needs repair so that we can move forward when Venus goes direct. With Sun and Mercury both in late Libra, we can use "illuminated mind" to see things from many perspectives to balance our understanding about how to coordinate future attractions and eliminations.
This is a great time to eliminate old hurts and interpersonal confusions still residing as past memories that may be cluttering our subconsciousness, as well as past misunderstandings that attracted or repelled things and people that created some of our present frustrations. As you know, many things happen throughout our lives that are forgotten to some degree, but still lurk in the bag of memories we lug around. These memories, whether conscious or unconscious, affect us more than we may think.
The funny thing about life for us humans is that we cannot have all we think we want or like all at the same time. If we would have new clothes, sometimes we must clean out our closets. If we want new food, we must clean out the refrigerator and/or pantry. If we want new friends and associates, we must turn away from some old ones that no longer accurately symbolize our Venus function.
On the other hand, sometimes we must turn away from present Venusian dead ends and reclaim previous relationships and values that are more who we really are than whatever illusions we've wandered into. Even this requires saying goodbye to elements of our lives to create the space to reclaim that which is true for us.
Saying goodbye to familiar thoughts, feelings, and elements of our past and present reality can be difficult, but it's necessary from time to time if we would say hello to newer, more appropriate elements of inner and outer reality. We must let go of our fistful of pennies if we would receive a handful of hundred dollar bills. And we must let go of old difficult memories if we would have more positive, hopeful ones.
So as difficult as it may be, this is the perfect time to remember what needs remembering in order to let go cleanly. This is the time to make amends, whether to another or to ourselves, for past errors and misunderstandings, so that we can repair what need repair in order to move forward in the now.
At this time we are greatly assisted by Mars in Scorpio ruling all the planets except Jupiter and Uranus, trining both of those planets in Pisces, the sign of forgiveness, compassion, and closure. This is a unique cosmic moment when we can use these harmonious, stabilizing energies to claim our Divine Power, or grace, or "form of Providence" to release the past and integrate/re-integrate whatever we need to in our inner or outer life and come to a rebirth by accepting primal feelings that can help us return to our true nature.
Above all be kind to yourself as you move through these deep feelings and do whatever repair work you need to. Whether paying dues, making things right, releasing what you no longer need or never did to begin with, move gently with mindfulness through these difficult times. Stridency, harshness, absolutism and fear are everywhere, and if you feel at all, you will feel these as they reside in collective consciousness.
That's why it's important to remember to let a lot go by without getting hooked by passing images and feelings as you watch the soft parade inside the gold mine. By the time Venus goes direct, you can come to know you are as surrounded by life and love as a fish by water. This is a time to overcome any sense of isolation or alienation from yourself, as prelude to new values, new relationships, new perspectives, and a liberation from old debts and judgments.
© Copyright 2010 Robert Wilkinson