by Robert Wilkinson
This came from a conversation I had with a friend. He strives to live a Spiritual life and keep a “spiritual head/heart space” and yet feels anxious and stressed, which sometimes leads him to feel like he may be falling short of the ideal. We explored some ideas that may be useful in navigating the current choppy waters of existence.
Obviously we should take nothing for granted as we work to be more present in the NOW. And right now Jupiter is square Uranus and opposition Pluto! That means those who are present in the NOW will experience that T-square to whatever degree and in whatever way it plays out in their lives. Here even friction can be useful if it leads to integration, and as the I Ching has taught us, “sometimes we are enriched through unfortunate events.”
Also remember that as we become more fully conscious, it also means we’ll be more aware of our own deficiencies, as well as be more aware of the collective atmosphere, with all its uncertainties, anxiety, apprehension, and judgments. That means we cannot shut off some types of feelings, since we’re part of All-That-Is, and if anything, we’re here to feel it and transmute it from negative to positive the best we’re able in that moment.
We cannot be attached to much here. That's not the nature of Nature. In Nature all forms eventually pass away. We are part of Nature. If all forms pass away, then we really cannot get hung up on things like feeling anxious or stressed. Life as a human being teaches us detachment, compassion, not taking things personally, and learning how to generate better intention in the NOW however that's appropriate to the moment.
Behind all the changing truths, circumstances, beliefs, and experiences of our life, we have a “Truth of Being” which never falls into error. If we reference our "Truth of Being," and see our lives as a narrative journey from ignorance into forms of awareness, from the unreal to the real and from darkness to Light, then we begin to see the thread of breadcrumbs through the forest. That helps us understand the “plot trajectory” of our “Hero’s journey” and allows us to find meaning by connecting the dots.
I’ve found it extremely useful to remember that Spirit is everything. Finding God/Truth/The Way, we find all other things in those things. And as Eternals having human experiences, sometimes our 5 senses and our minds obscure more than they clarify. That’s why it’s helpful to set our reference toward the Spiritual Truths we’ve found and are finding, each in our own way.
This is a very intense time, and it probably will be for some time to come, given Uranus square Pluto. While meditation can help us reduce anxiety, it’s also helpful to ask yourself “What is anxious?” From one point of view that which experiences anxiety or stress is not truly real, but merely the body, feelings, and mind not cooperating in your higher Self's interests.
Also, a lot of anxiety is lodged in the subconscious mind, and is often triggered by feelings of inadequacy related to prior experiences. This is when doing something different, and/or seeing how we’re dealing with things differently than we were when we went through the original anxiety inducing experience, can reduce the attachment to suffering the feelings of inadequacy.
Then there’s always the factor that usually the worst never happens, and even when it does (which I have known several times this life) then worry, anxiety, too much hamster mind racing on the wheel, apprehension, etc. do not help us remember the very temporary apparent reality of those outer events. It’s as though anxiety feeds the apprehension that “the worst could happen,” and in dreading that, we become more anxious.
That’s why when dealing with anxiety or fear, if we redirect in the NOW, finding a new way of viewing and responding to actualities as well as potentials, then the old melts away quickly. Sometimes this entails playing with something rather than working at it. And especially when we see that the ways we’re “working” at something isn’t giving us the results that move us toward a higher awareness, then it’s time to redirect. This is where playing with ideas is often more useful than "working" at whatever.
Learning to generate positivity on our own behalf is one of the antidotes to the sources of suffering. When we generate positive experiences, then down the road we have good memories, and not just memories of struggles. When we learn how to manage our responses to different kinds of energy, both positive and negative, then we won’t be throw off balance when we find ourselves in a stressful situation, or in someone else’s stressful situation.
Ultimately, it’s useful to remember that we who have attained some measure of awareness through both study and hard knocks always have the joyous karma of paying it forward. That seems to be our part in generating Bodhichitta that helps clean up the atmosphere and makes the world a little lighter and brighter.
As you have learned, you will teach. As you have felt and cared, so you will find yourself feeling and caring. Along life’s paths, you will find many who share your heart’s aspiration and your Soul’s Love. And that’s a very good thing, since it destroys the roots of loneliness and separation, and brings us an experience of togetherness within “All-That-Is.”
© Copyright 2014 Robert Wilkinson